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sighhhhhhh
FUCKFUCKFUCK :(
being female really gets on my nerves sometimes.
i mean, we're born to be more... emotional than guys right.
which sometimes cause us to break down for no particular reason, or so i think.

i am SO weird i scare myself.
i get so paranoid sometimes.
and when its overwhelming, i crack, like really bad.

i felt really shitty the whole day.
and i don't know why!
i was out with nic n charmaine this morning at swee lee looking at guitars (i have decided what i'm gonna get btw.) and met ada n steph for lunch and we watched a movie and i love their company really, which is weird to be feeling crappy right.

this is tre disturbing.

does this just goes to show how fragile i am, despite the tough front i normally put?
i feel woozy.

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MERRY XMAS (pronouced: ex-must) TO ALLA YOU! :D
haha
ex-must is so reminiscent of 'confessions of a teenage drama queen' haha
mel and i were SOO into adam garcia, that drunk rockstar dude.
haha!

donuts...

anw i had the bestest xmas eve :D
i was over at furby's house watching movies and snacking and drinking beverages like no ones business.
DAMN that sucky business in the morning that made me compromised my time with darling furb.
and i finally saw the 'escape hole' in furb's wall.

and because of... certain events that occured post-6pm after i left furbsie's crib, i might be on her mommy's blacklist!
:O

butbut i helped them carry their xmas eve party items kay, while furby lugged back that 3kg turkey haha.

AND her mom did say 'hope to see you again!', when i left her house.
i dont care, i'll take that as 'bring your ass back here soon, i can't wait to feed you again, come what may, sweetums ;)'

oh and btw, gillman heights enbloc is on!
so we gotta shift out by september next year.
omg imagine if i shift to mei ling street haha.
i can climb into furby and sheryan and hweegy's house anytime.
\m/ YEAH.

but... dunno la.
house hunting now is nasty, cos the market price is above evaluation.
and i dunno why i just put that down here where no one would probably understand haha.

regardless, anyone who knows of any available houses please do tell me, thanks.

ok so umi's whole family's gonna come over to celebrate xmas haha.
we might be visiting the HortPark aka veggie patch, which is like 5 mins away from my place.
yes, we might be stealing the pumpkins, like orang atas.
haha.

yep, gonna see guitars again tmr lol
better get one before school reopens...sheeeesh.
and watching national treasure with ada n gang tmr afternoon (:
yep.

DAMN SCHOOL'S STARTING IN A WEEK
-faints-

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aaaah yesterday was great (:
met up with slimey and jessbo, crazy poots haha.

and i'm sooo slenger i didnt know there were cafes that loaned like board games and such and you can play and eat and whatever there.
went to kaato (was it?) near pandan valley.
haha it was so fun, we played taboo with many many people, slimey's ac friends, some of whom were from crescent and one was from kellock even!
really funny people (:

then me slimey jess and slimey's friend, jiajun took a bus ride to bugis, where i FINALLY got my jeans from a mere 26bucks, suck that betchezzzz
i couldnt get a straight cut one though ):
but these skinnies are something (:

and we went on a perfume testing spree haha
we smelt fab after the whole experience lol
estee lauder has nice fragrances!
i like the fruity ones, or milder flower-ish ones.

then we had fries and macs just to talk nonsense, like we always do.
slimey went for her ocip to vietnam like 10days before and jessbo is leaving for perth tmr for family gathering!
then snapsnap pics and me n slimey shared a busride back home.

sigh, aww i miss those girls.

haha OHOH
and i FINALLY gave jess her 3 year old birthday present which me n yeelyn got during the endyear hols of 2004 HAHA.
yeelyn, you owe me one.

okay, leaving for the work thing in an hour.
my muscles still aching from ytd's track workout!
):

i suck.
bye.

*k pics here (:

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i forgot where i got this from!!
but i THINK it was from ugly betty, i dunno.
but anyway

question: why do we always fall for the bad guys/girls?

answer: because when they do something bad, we'll be like 'oh yeah, see i expected that...'. then when they do something sweet to you, you'll be like awed wayyy more than if that were to come from someone else, someone who isn't like bad-boy/girl.

hmm.

`the things i've done are way too s ha me fu l

i never knew saosin was pronouced 'say-yo-sin' (:

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geez!
went to school ytd for nothing.
mr syed wasnt there :(

but at least i got to meet bobby ada n steph after EONS (:

had darling shaker fries while it was raining BAD.
chat chat talk talk catch up catch up.

adaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
-whines-
:/

and i burnt myself today, how awesome.
i forgot i wasn't born with regenerative powers like claire.
i stuck BOTH hands in the oven to cook my awesome parmesan-mozzarella-sugar toast for breakfast so the stuff on the bread wouldn't drop off, without mittens.
ouch.
right hand yielded a little burn.
nastyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

reminds me of the time i ironed my left hand.
yeah yeah i always end up hurting myself with in the most unconventional ways.
i'm not sadomasochistic okay!
thats furby ;)

and she made me watch marilyn manson's (s)aint video.
god, disturbing shit.
i was hoping my parents wouldn't sneak up behind me, questioning me about this sick perverted video.
eeeeeeeesh.

anw forgot to add my embroilment in a crime incident in malaysia.
HAHA.
ok, not that serious la.

we were just past the malaysian side of the immigration from the second link way, like maybe 1 km away, when they blocked off like the WHOLE ROAD.
no car could pass through la.
so all the drivers were like 'wtf!??!' and hopped off the vehicle trying to see wth was going on.
then after about 10-15mins we heard someone from behind say that a few cars behind them U-TURNED and sped off like damn fast dashing past incoming traffic la omfg.
crazy idiots, we thought.
then the next day, there was an article in the papers about it.
turns out those 5/6 cars carried stolen handphones or smth.


they've GOT to be the stupidest criminals ever la.
see, they U-TURNED and sped off, and no matter how fast, eventually where would they end up?

the immigration place.


idiots!

they got caught la obviously.
funny.
haha.

yessss i got 'varsity blues' :D
and soon i'm gonna get 'the quiet'

now begins the movie marathon :)
before dec ends, i'd better watch what i can and clear com space man.
geez.

ok cooking spaghetti now.
ola amigos.

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ok yes, i admit, i perv at hot chicks on imdb when i'm bored.
sue me.

`the things i've done are way too s ha me fu l

WHOO
last night was just pure awesomeness.
despite being covered in 30573 other people's sweat (figure of speech huns, i don't think i WAS that filthy la lol) and being jostled like i was a marshmallow (by those huge men carting crazy idiots who fainted/going to faint outside) and the right shoe coming off twice, it was just great great fun :)

loved loved loved the old songs hehe.
like helena, give 'em hell kid, those long long titled ones i can never seem to differentiate, i'm not okay.
great great shit.

and they had to end it with a bang, with famous last words la.

too bad bob wasn't there :(
but the thursday guy filling in on the drums was JUST as awesome :D

was with oliver tiff georgina andre his friend and his cousin.
haha

met oliver earlier to get a gift, but ended up empty handed.
house of condoms actually has an 'above 25' section.
geee i wonder whats there o.o

i saw a pack of truth or dare cards that'd be really fun to play with at bbqs/ partys/ sleepovers.
hmmm ;)

anw last night was just great fun la.
too bad i had to leave slightly earlier.

this'll probably be like one of the only occasions my dad'll let me out late.
lucky i chose tonight :)

yay and tmr'll be work orientation!
looking forward to the 200-500bucks a week :D
but that's gonna come damn late la.
and i'm gonna have to work during school time too.
but only on weekends i think.
see first ah.

aite time for some pics :)

andre haha

shy little oliver

i think they were giving away condoms, which some people blew up and had fun with ;)


frankie LOVE!!!! :D


frankie mikey

\m/

whoa this looks professionally taken LOL

mr gee

mikey

horns \m/

ray toro is that tiny haha

sweaty and greasy awesome people

more horns, everyone's a sexy devil that night

the dangerous pit of doom (prerequisite: shirtless males full of testosterone)




oh hell yeah.
a night to remember.
(:
thanks all!

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oh yeah, one more thing
-clears throat-

I'M CATCHING MCR TOMORROW! \m/
STANDING TIX BABYYY woooooooooooooot!

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hey all,

haven't been here in more than a month.
nope, i wasn't busy.
try lazy.

ok ok.
EVERYONE LISTEN UP!
if you haven't caught 'gossip girl' yet, YOU OUGHTA BE FCKING SHOT!
its a mustwatch!
even if you're a tomboy or a really manly man, i swear there's an inner bimbo/himbo in each and everyone of you.
please please watch 'gossip girl'.
no regrets!
there's definitely a character each one of you can relate to/gawk at.
awesomeness.
everyone's favourite is darling nate but i won't know why theres this part of me that is soooooooooo obsessed with chuck.
i feel really filthy.
furby says i'm just a normal healthy horny teenager, thats why.
serena is a princess and blair...
hmm i didnt like her at first but somehow as she appears to be more of a devilish minx [SO like chuck], that makes her sexier, to me.
i think i have problems, i really do.


anw the trip to ipoh-cameron highlands-kl was pretty okay la.
save for the kl trip when no one but me was in the mood for insane shopping.
its sucky shopping/having a holiday in general with people who don't have the mood.
its like you don't show appreciation to the people [ok, my parents] who've taken like more than a week off to spend some time with you.
do understand that la.
even me, who's like 'i hate it at home', i know they care la.
so just... please k.
geez.

and finally caught 'enchanted' with madhiah like right before the trip haha.
okay la.
i can't believe aleefa told me to watch out for robin from 'how i met your mother'.
SHE WASN'T IN THE FCKING MOVIE LA.
she thought robert's fiance was her.
blind as a mice?
mhmm.

and uncle ghinan's wedding was on saturday 8th dec at our condo's hall.
was damn hectic at home, felt moody, but i guess it all paid off.
was pretty nice.
food's not bad.
i think this is the only wedding where westlife, linkin park, blink 182 and michael learns to rock were lumped into one playlist as background music HAHA.
tickled me when 'first date' started playing.
maybe its their song lol.

anw had the first track training since like before exams today.
out of form.
disgusting.
but good to see the people again :)
saw this hot girl from gillman in the morning and she took my bus, then realized she was going to tanglin to train with us too lol
had a chat with her.
turns out she IS a neighbour.
WAS, rather.
she went to australia after her sec2 year and now she's back cos its the holidays.
so yeah.
hehe.
kinda funny when she came to me and said, 'hello you have two sisters right?'
i was like 'o.o -shakes head- 3 actually, and a brother :D'

haha.
thanks thanks i'm a chick magnet, sucks to be alla you guys/lesbians out there who've never been chatted up by a hot chick \m/

andand saturday morning was funny.
i turned on the radio from my phone for nawfal to listen cos i woke up to him bouncing on my bed.
then after he left i just listened to 987fm.
this girl was on air and she answered a question wrong.
so i just decided to call in for fun, see if i could actually get through.
then i got a dialtone.
and i was all 'omg o.o'
then that vanessa person's voice came on and i was still like o.o
haha
turns out i got the right answer [MCR THANKS A MIL.] and won some cd hamper, furby baby says an mcr thing.

so wooot \m/

then came like the worse two days of my life.
i hate it when people are hypocritical doinks.
points out faults in everyone else but doesn't realize when him/herself commits the same identical mistake.
and they just thrive on others' tears and feeling-like-shit-ness.
FFS.
you ALWAYS have to be right huh.
hah.
i'm already pushed to a very dangerous point already i feel, and if this continues and i can't take it, something serious is going to happen i SWEAR.
i firmly believe i don't always have to be the one to give in ALL THE TIME especially if i'm not at fault, i really don't.
it is against my personal beliefs to be a fcking pushover.
so there.
suck all that in foo.
and to think there is this part in me that still urges me to love you.








this has been causing my precious sleep.
i think its true that happy people look good and poor depressed sad sad people look like shit all the time.
i need some feel good time.
thanks furbs for all your time.
i really really appreciate your texts and you really really make me feel a lot happier every night :)
if anyone tells you you are not worth it, come tell me i'll fuck that fucker up figuratively.
haha i'll take a raincheck on Plan Midnight Escape cos i dont wanna get into further unnecessary complications with the 'rents.
theres always next year baby :D

alright, time to finish 'the murder escape'
that'll make 4 books completed for the holidays.

list of books i borrowed from the library to be read by the end of holidays:


Bangkok 8
The Murder Artist
The Interpretation of Murder
Practical Demonkeeping
The Violet Hour
The Wedding Game
The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle
Murder Most Divine: Ecclesiastical Tales of Unholy Crimes



yeap.
that and upcoming work and track and IR and random meetings with random honeys to fill my december holiday.
i'm glad it won't go to waste.

love,
me

hameyy
mudd
mel's farm
1st march
vampires :D
saxophones <3
guitars <3

ex-kellockian
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2 jade'98
3 jade'99
4 jade'00
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6 topaz'02

ex-crescentian
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cgssb
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